parents i love you

well i can tell everything right here since i have some privacy to do so.

you know, my mama always stalking me & my sister's blog. sometimes we feel like we dont have any privacy to update apa yg ada dalam hati bcs we both know that mama's gonna read them & mempersoalkan benda tu in real life.

kalau tak persoalkan pun, dia akan cerita dekat abah or abang wan tentang apa yg kami update & its really annoying habit of her. but i still love her. she's really concern abt along & I so much.

kelmarin mother's day. you know, mother's & father's day ni merupakan hari paling awkward bagi aku sebab aku rasa bersalah sangat kalau nak wish kat depa dua macam "ma, i love you, happy mother's day". awkward. sebab tak pernah practice dari kecik. i guess.

nak mintak maaf dalam bahasa melayu pun aku tak suka sebab jadi awkward. pelik kan? paling power pun "sorry ma, sorry abah". kena sorry. kalau nak berucap pun aku lebih kepada bahasa inggeris. i dont know what exactly fucking wrongs with my bahasa melayu.

kalau mama/abah bagi duit pun aku awkward nak cakap "terima kasih". i will say "thank you or tochei ((chinese style)) instead of terima kasih.

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME KAN?

semalam mother's day aku wish ja kat mama since i'm jobless & moneyless. hahahah. sorry ma i cant be a perfect daughter to give you a gift or whatever. tu pun aku wish "happy mother's day". mama tak ambik port pun sebab dok kalut nangis baca mesej along.

eleh along tu macam aku tak kenai. dia berani la tulis macam2 ayat power sbb dalam mesej. kalau suruh dia call & cakap sendiri pun dia bukan mau. hahahaha. kami memang camni. pesen malu tak bertempat. hahaha.

but here i am promise to my parents that i will,

study hard
make them happy
hantaq depa pi umrah/haji
cari menantu yg terbaik. eh.
bagi kebahagiaan dunya akhira' kat depa.
be a good person.

yes. tak guna kalau harta banyak tapi perangai kalah syaitan.

yes ma, bah, i will be a good person. like you guys did.

i love you guys so much. thanks for being a good/craziest/happening parents ever. thanks for raising me up. thanks for all the money that you guys spend on me. thanks for the joy. thanks for the love. thanks for the food. thanks for the shelter. thanks for the cloths. thanks for giving me an education. thanks for everything. and thanks for having me as your daughter.

allah saja yg dapat balas kebaikkan dua manusia ni.

aku tak mampu. sungguh, aku tak mampu.

tengok. aku bukan reti berucap dalam bahasa melayu.

i find that, awkward.

*shoot myself*